date: friday -- august 29 -- 2003 b0uncin to: wayne wonder -- enemies. yea so i guess this story is coming to a sad end. i've been neglecting this site for my xanga. the xanga is just so much easier to use and with junior year coming up and hectic it will be, i think it's best to say that i will be using the xanga more than i expected - it just makes life easier on me. i seriously thought that it was going to be a trial thing but turns out it wasn't. i love the way that i can get feedback on it and now have to have my own domain or pay certain amounts of money or install something in my computer for a comments thing. i'm still not going to drop this site -- i've worked too hard, but things will be going on a much slower pace with this blogger. who knows when a new layout will be up? but if you would like to still read what's going on -- feel free to go to my xanga. but for now, later. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: friday -- august 15 -- 2003 b0uncin to: good charlotte -- boys & girls. BLACKOUT 2003 yea the name sounds gay, so sue me. i couldn't think of a better or non-typical name for it. this experience has really made me appreciate electricty more. but i think this was an experience that i can learn from and brought all new yorkers together. i can share in this experience because everyone on my block was outside with flashlights just talking to one another. all in all it wasn't that bad. it was something that made you get out of the house and enjoy was nature has. the heat wasn't bad. if you just chilled it was alright. i passed through the time with books. it was just nice and calm. the only thing that really freaked me out was the night time. we only had a total of about 6 candles but we survived. i took a shower in the morning and then daytime so i was set. the food was another problem, the ice started melting out of the fridge so we had to take out all the good ice and pack it into a cooler. by the time the ice melted the light had already came on. for me it came on at exactly 5:12 p.m. oh yes. when i saw my closet light come on, i ran throughout the house praising that we had electricity. jamaica, queens was the last spot to get it. during this whole blackout, i was trying to get information on what did this only to realize that no one else knows. it's weird how everyone is blaming everyone. one finger points to con edison while the other blames the whole entire canada. i just pray and hope it's nothing terrorist related, but one can only pray. i really felt sorry for the people stuck in the trains and manhattan. a lot of people literally walked home, even people who lived in queens. shit was crazy. i'm just thankful that not a lot of people got hurt and that the electricity is back on. well, to all of my 3 viewers out there, be safe and till we meet again. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: monday -- august 11 -- 2003 b0uncin to: kelis -- milkshake. i'm feeling pretty alright right now. i copped a new cell-u-lar yesterday, not the one i was expecting to buy -- clyde convinced me to buy this one. it's a verizon lg vx 6000. yep. during work today i had mixed feelings. most of the time i was annoyed while little times i was alright. a lot of people like to talk shit. they like to hype up one another's head. i don't understand why the hell people do that. if you know A doesn't like B, then don't tell B that A likes them. you will only make the person look like a fool and make them hurt more once they realize what's going on. i don't like when people act stuck up or try to show off in front of others. it's so stupid. a lot of things have been on my mind. there's too many to even say and are so little to even talk about them. one major thing that's been in my head is marriage. yea i'm only 16 but lately i was put into a position where i had to think about it (not that i was going to get married now), of course i'd finish school first. but when you give me the choice of having an arranged marriage or not, i think i'd have an arranged marriage - that being if still don't have anyone after h.s. i mean the way they do arranged marriages now are different from old times. you meet the person before hand and you get to know them, if you don't like them, you don't like them. nothing is rushed. it's basically like having a regular relationship but just with your parent's choosing. it has it's plus cause this way your parents can't bitch about who you're with and i know that my dad will choose someone smart and successful and my mom will see if they are good looking and the age difference. so technically it's not really an arranged marriage, it's just you telling your parents you want to be hooked up. yea, that's it. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: sunday -- august 3 -- 2003 b0uncin to: good charlotte -- the anthem. BACK AGAINwell well well. here i am. i'm finally back. actually i've been back but i've been writing in the xanga more. makes me feel like i'm betraying this site in some sick demented way but i like xanga for the simple facts that people can comment you. for me to start a comment box here is a lot of work and there are very immature people on the net. i tried once for a comment box only for it to be resulted as a failed attempt. ON THE JUMP OF THINGS i'm trying to come up with a new layout for this blog. the only problem is now that everytime i open up paint shop pro, a pop up comes and says that it has encountered a problem and needs to close. and what i want to know is how the hell are you closing the program if it didn't even open up yet? i don't know what's up so i'm on the move to try and get psp 8. hopefully things will look up with that. FAMILY MATTERS i hate being put in a position where i'm directly put in the middle and being pulled from 2 sides of a family. one side tells you not to bother with the person while the person tells you that it's all corruption and lies. i can't deal with it. i stay where i stay. i can't believe something if i haven't seen it done. i can't take people's sides without seeing what the cause was. don't expect me to stop talking to one side because you have problems, that's fam and to me it's all about being strictly fam. i'll be there for you no doubt but don't put me in the position where i have to choose cause i won't. you wish everything was solved, or at least that's what you tell me, but avoiding the situation is not going to solve anything. staying away from the people you loved is not the answer and just makes things get heated more. supposedly you're scared, and who wouldn't be? but your not making it better upon yourself to just run. people who are still there for you are loosing hope and personally i'm starting to think that there might be a 9% chance that it is you. but i don't know. tho you may not like what i'm saying, but that's how i stay and how i do. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: saturday -- july 26 -- 2003 b0uncin to: pardesiya. BASiCS [1] first name: Alissa [2] middle name [if any]: Nevita [3] last name: J________ [4] nicknames: Lissa, Hypn0tik [5] where were you born: Queens [6] where do you live now: Queens [7] do you like where you live: I love Queens, but I could go for livin' in another block. [9] do you like your school: The friends are cool, but the place is gay. [10] grade: Going to be a Junior. [11] birthday: 02-08-87 [12] age: 16 CURRENTLY [1] talking to: Bianca [2] eating: Nothing [3] drinking: Coke [4] wearing: Timberwolves jersey with blue jeans. [5] listening to: Pardesiya from the movie Mr. Natwarlal. [6] watching: The computer screen sir. [7] the room you are in: The basement. FAV0RiTES [1] color: Blue, dark pink, silver, a whole arrangement of colors. [2] food: McDonald's, Guyanese Food, Chinese, and Pasta. [3] name[s]: Avindra and Ashwariya. [4] type of music: Hip-Hop, R&B, Reggae, Soca, Chutney, and Indian. [5] song[s]: Nas - "I Can", Big Tymers - "Still Fly", and "Pardesiya". [6] tv show: The Simpsons, Smackdown, Who Got Game?, and Spiderman. [7] radio station: Hot 97 and Power 105.1 [8] flower: Stargazers [9] singer: Madonna [10] rapper: Eminem [11] DJ: DJ Skribble...he's sexy. =P [12] scent: Curve/Coolwater [13] store: H&M [14] place to go: The Bronx [15] thing to look at: A sexy man..who has a nice 6 pack and is really tall and *sighs*. [16] animal: Black Panther. [17] quote: "I am a hustler baby I sell water to a well" - Jay-Z. [18] person: How do you have a FAVORITE person when there are so many in the world? [19] sport: Wrestling and Street Ball. [20] toothpaste: The Whitening One? [21] shampoo: Treseme/Pantene Pro V. [22] band: Blink 182/WhiteStripes/Good Charlotte. [23] cd: Both the "Marshall Mather's LP" and "The Eminem Show". [24] movie: My Girl FRiENDSHiP [1] best female friend[s]: Jessie, Queenna, Cassy, and Lauren. [2] best male friend[s]: My "brother" David. [3] most fun to be with: Jessie. [4] most fun to flirt with: Samee. [5] most huggable: Everyone is "too cool" to hug. [6] the one you tell EVERYTHING to: Jessie, Queenna, and Cassy. [7] the one you tell most to: Lauren. [8] the one you talk to about boys/girls: EVERYBODY. [9] the one you go to for advice: Jessie. [10] best personality: hmmm... [11] best voice: i dunno. [12] nicest hair: i dunno. [13] nicest eyes: Randy...has those prettiful eyelashes. [14] nicest smile: i dunno. [15] best sense of style: Lauren. [16] the one with a contagious laugh: ME!! lol. [17] smartest: Queenna. [18] most attractive personality: i dunno. [19] most attractive looks: i dunno. [20] best room: not me, lol. [21] the one you miss the most: Queenna cause I RARELY see her. [22] funniest: Jessie and Queenna. [23] coolest family: Lauren. [24] best taste in music: We all listen to pretty much the same thing. [25] lives the farthest: David. [26] lives the closest: Bianca. L0VE SEX AND MARRiAGE [1] single/taken/waiting/wishing/dont care: Single. [2] very first boyfriend/girlfriend [if any]: Tony. [3] current boyfriend/girlfriend [if any]: Nope. [4] first crush: It's really sad to say but it was a Pre-K thing...that damn Devin. [5] first dance: Like I remember. [6] first kiss: Tony. [7] must-have qualities: Height, Humor, Style, some good looks, and a wondeful personality. [9] turn ons: Lips, hard bodies, & tallness. [10] turn offs: Guys who smother and annoy nor can take a hint. [11] sexual turn ons: *evil laugh* I don't think we have time for that... [12] sexual turn offs: Nasty Chest Hair. ew. [13] how far have you gone: heh...heh... [14] are condoms necessary: I would think so. [15] are you a virgin: Yes. [16] if not, what age do you want to lose it: If I'm not a virgin wouldn't I have lost it already? [17] age you want to get married: in the 20's..maybe midway. [18] location of marriage: iunno. [19] location of reception: iunno. [20] location of honeymoon: A tropical island. YOU [1] color of toothbrush: Blue and White. [2] shampoo: Treseme. [3] conditioner: Treseme. [4] deodorant: Dove. [5] hair spray: My hair is too long for hair spray. [6] gel: Na, i don't use it. [7] body spray: i use da perfume [8] cologne: Some Victoria Secret Stuff. [9] regular bras or sport bras: Regular. [10] boxers or briefs:I like my men in boxers. [11] panties or thongs: Panties. Thongs are a full time wedgie..who the hell wants that? [12] two piece or one piece: lol... [13] do you have your own room: Yes sir. [14] do you have your own bathroom: ha! [15] hairstyle: Wavy and left out. [16] piercings: 2 on each ear. [17] tattoos: Na. [18] nails: Nice and not too long. All mine painted with Sally Henson clear nail polish. [19] braces/retainer: Na. [20] makeup you use: In the Winter I use Powder and lip balm but in the Summer it's strictly lip balm. [21] time you wake up on school days: 6:00 a.m. [22] time you wake up on weekends: All sort of times. [23] chores: Cleaning my Room and Swifering..once in a while Dusting Down. [24] goals: Make my Family proud. [25] worst fear: Being lonely and not having a good life. [26] what do you wanna do before you die: Have Fun. [27] religion: Hindu. [28] words you live by: Live life to the Fullest..Do Good in School so you can support yourself and not depend on anyone else. [29] did you ever smoke: no. [30] did you ever get high: no. [31] did you ever drink: yea. [32] how many bedrooms in your house: 3 [33] how many phones in your house: 5 [34] how many tv's in your house: 3 [35] how many computers: 1 [36] one story/two story/three story/apartment/flat: 3 story...but if you count the attic wouldn't hat really be 4? I don't know. [37] how many bathrooms: 2 [38] song/poem you live by: Nas - I Can. [39] what did you do last friday: Surfed Online. [40] what did you do today: Go to my sister's house, went to C-Town, and came back home. [41] what are you doing tomorrow: Most likely everything but the C-Town..and wash my hair..and TRY to clean my room. [42] what did you do last summer: CHILL. [43] what are you doing this summer: work [45] graduation year: 2005..fo'sho [46] mood: alright. [47] where do you wish you could be right now: In Hawaii, checking out all those sexy men. [48] do you have any pets: ha! [49] do you have your own phone line: nope. [50] do you have a cell phone: yes sir. [51] do you do any sports or after school activities: Just Asian club..which is filled with Guyanese and Trini people cause Mary Louis doesn't want a West Indian/Carribean Club. M00DY QUESTi0NS [1] does music altar your mood: yea [2] does rap give you a headache: na [3] is your pms level high: Shit I don't know. [4] do you get mad easily: Yes..by little kids. [5] do you get irritated easily: ^ it's up there. [6] do you cry at movies: no [7] can a song make you teary eyed: Only if it's a lovey dovey song and I was just heart broken. [8] are you usually happy: I guess. [9] are you easily amused: I think so? [10] are you tired/sleepy: My lower back is starting to hurt. [11] do you take drugs to "get away": um no. [12] do you love everyone: yes. *looks around* [13] favorite moody song: Blink 182's "Adam's Song". [14] saddest song: I can't think of any right now. [15] do you ever get depressed for no reason: Sometimes. [16] do you laugh a lot: Hell yea. [17] do you have a contagious laugh: I'm not sure. [18] are you satisfied easily: It depends... [19] do you swear: FUCK YEA, lol. [20] do you hate the world: No but my friend Jessie does. HAVE Y0U EVER [1] smoked: no [2] drank: yes [3] bungee jumped: no [4] sky dived: no [5] took a walk in the rain just because: yes [6] met anyone famous and who: I don't think so. [7] been on stage: yes [8] done something cause everyone else was doing it: yes [9] been in a fight: ........ [10] done sneaky things here and there to get back at someone: *puts head down in shame* yes. [11] eaten glue: no [12] eaten play dough: no [13] stolen something: I think i accidentally took a pen without paying for it at one of those carts at the mall. I DIDN'T MEAN IT! [14] been in a lingerie store: Yes. [15] bought something and never used it: Of course. [16] watched barney: When I was small..he was ill. [17] played with barbies: Yes. CHiLDH00D [1] first word: I don't know and neither does my parents. [2] who thought of your name: My uncle or my mom. [3] pre-school: no [4] shows you watched: Mr. Rogers, Sesame Street, Barney, Bobby's World, and the 1st Power Rangers. [5] time you were born: The certificate is upstairs..and I'm lazy. [6] question most often asked: Did you know your hair is long? [7] thin or chubby: chubby [8] quiet or loud: loud [9] favorite disney movie: Lilo & Stitch. N0W [1] do you still have that childish side: yes [2] do you still watch disney movies: yeah [3] do you keep your toys: Their with my niece. [4] do you think you're more mature: Yea. [5] what makes you different now from then: My height. [6] do you look like how you did when you were young: na. [7] are you still pure: ? FUTURE [1] where do you want to live: New York [2] college you want to go to: I don't know..a good one. [3] job: Something with computers. [4] gender of kid: Boy. [5] describe your dream wedding: Big and Nice and Extravagant. [6] describe your ideal husband/wife: Sexy, tall, funny, and treats me right. [7] wedding colors: White and something [8] wedding song: I used to know this one. [9] who will your best best man be: That's for my husband to decide. [10] who will your maiden of honor be: I think I'll have like 348925974 of them, lol [11] do you think you'll dramatically change from now til then: I'm not sure. [12] car: I want an escalade..but let's see if that happens,lol [13] pet: none. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: tuesday -- july 22 -- 2003 b0uncin to: christina aguilera -- fighter. my life is one that you would call hectic. i work and when i come home i'm so tired to do anything. i have so many books to read and summer assignments to do. i have to make my sister chocolates and i'm starting to take kickboxing (well once the weather brightens up). work was so dead today. a lot of people aren't there and the people who were there was just out of it, including me. as soon as i came home i dropped on my bed and fell asleep only to wake up with a fever, just great. i took 2 tyenol and my mom made me soup so i'm feeling better =) . i'm such a sap, always wanting to be pampered and treated like a little kid when i'm sick. FIGHTER i only started listening to the song, i've grown to like it. but i think that the video should of been different. i don't like the whole moth and black scene. i don't understand it. i have my own version of the video. i thought it would of been cool if they had her fighting the boyfriend, like in a boxing/wrestling match and while he and everyone else thinks she's going to loose, she ends up winning. but the video is already made and out so there's really no point of my idea. RANDOM JUNK yo i'm running out of clothes to wear, it's so serious, lol. and being that the weather is full of rain i can't rock tanktops and capris. it's like every week i'm buying new clothes. on the serious tip tho, i really need to stop. it's like i'm spending 0 or a little less every week. last weekend i bought all white ups and now i bought a jersey. this needs to stop. i really need to copp my new cell. this cell is getting on my nerves and t-mobile stay making it look like i ran up the bill. they took me from 500 free text down to 300 then down to 50. i really have to remind my mom to call up since the phone is in her name. shit is ridiculous. yesterday me and the c-unit went to the movies to see Bad Boys II. it was really good and funny but just a little too long. but from a rating of 1-10 i give it a 9. IN THE NEWS yo. i was reading aol news and it turns out both of saddam's sons are dead. that's crazy yo. they were supposedly killed in a raid but it's been confirm that they are dead. but what i wonder is 1. where is saddam and how come he wasn't with his sons? and 2. why in the hell is the u.s. celebrating the fact that they killed someone? i mean yea these people were our enemies but still it feels so wrong to actually celebrate that they killed people. hmph..i don't know. OTHER THINGS when it comes right down to it, i don't know what i'm going to do with this blogger. i have an xanga and write in it more. i don't want to abandon this site cause i think creativity wise it'll do me better. i think that this blogger will just have more intellectual writings and stuff that i'm going to go deep into. the xanga will just be ramblings about what i did for that day. yea, that's probably what i'm going to do. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: tuesday -- july 16 -- 2003 b0uncin to: pink -- family portrait. whats really good? nothing much here, just keeping myself busy with work. i just realized that i have a lot of school stuff to do. i only read more than half of one book. these books have good plots to them but just drag on. drag drag drag. then the school said that you have to go online and look for your science assignment but the science dept. keeps on putting it off. today i went to work and took a 2 hour lunch break (lol) and went to the park with the guys and girls. the guys played basketball while we were all on the swings. i saw the cutest little girl, reminded me of amber and she was all alone and i felt sorry for her so i started talking to her and she was 9 and her cousins left to go somewhere and come back and i just got all sad. i'm such a loser, lol. aw man, i have nothing to talk about really. just wanted to post something new. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: thursday -- july 10 -- 2003 b0uncin to: christina aguilera -- fighter. wuddup wuddup? the past few days have been a little hectic due to my aunt's death. she was such a humble woman and it hurts that she's not here but i must constantly remember that she's in a better place where hurt nor harm will come her way anymore. i feel really sorry for my uncle and how he has to deal with this. he's handicapped so it's not like he can just go and live by himself and what makes it worse is that he lives in the basement and, i don't know, he's going to be lonely. (sighs) tomorrow i have work. it's been going alright so far. the only thing is me trying to wake up and picking out something new to wear everyday. i've been going to catholic school all my life so i never had to worry about what i was going to wear, but being that this is something different i have to. i have to learn to adjust. being that tomorrow is friday i doubt any one of the people i work with will be there or they will all be leaving real early. oh well, i need my hours. well, i'm going to exit this entry for now. peace. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: monday -- july 07 -- 2003 b0uncin to: D-Block -- 2 Gunz Up. HEAVY ROTATIONeverywhere we gooO people wanna knooO who we are so we tell them this is d-block mighty mighty d-block everywhere we gooO people wanna knooO who we are so we tell them this is d-block mighty mighty d-block everywhere we gooO people wanna knooO gangsta song right here yo. UPSTATE yea, it was pretty good. chilled outside, rode around, ate bbq food, and lit up mad fireworks. i really did have a good time. the way back was hectic..so much traffic. that's what you get when you try to leave on fourth of july weekend. WORK so today was my first day. it wasn't that bad. i just got to get this wheelchair thing on lock and i'll be good. most of the time i'll be in gift shop or doing recreational work. time goes by sorta quick so that's a good thing. the only thing is me getting used to everything. hopefully that will change very quickly. OTHER THINGS well i tried to get more into this blogger thing, trying to let you guys speak out so i tried to put a commenting thing up but so far none has worked so far. but i'm still trying. my dad copped a new cell-U-lar. it looks like the one i want except the front is different. he can get downloaded ringtones but i don't know how. but i'll find out. well, i'll catch yall later. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: thursday -- july 03 -- 2003 b0uncin to: zinda rehti hai mohabbatein RANDOM RAMBLES dam. tomorrow is already the 4th of july..shit. i wanna wild out that day, i wanna chill with people who got firecrackers cause saturday is gonna be hell. saturday morning we are heading out to upstate. great. my homeboy david copped a new cell-U-lar...a motorola something. he told me what it was but i faded it out cause i knew i wasn't going to remember. my clip to my cellphone broke and since i don't carry bags, i have to lug that thing around in my hand..and being that it's a nokia...one drop and all the covers come off and that's type embarssing 'specially if your in public. POPUPS yo popups piss me off. yea aol can block them..but they got these new popups that i guess pass through explorer and these popups look like someone is giving you a message. it's so annoying. i get one every 20 minutes. i think it's cause of kazaa. if it's that then i can't bitch cause kazaa is the only few that gives us free music so they got to make money some way. =/ LOVE LIFE things are the same. you get your hopes up for nothing really. i'm just going to try to sit back and relax. there's always confusion which i stress over and it's not worth it if the other person could give one crap. so why stress it? if it's meant to be...it's meant to be. if it's not..then it's not. RANDOM RAMBLES - PART 2 uh oh my nails are growing, lol. except the middle one on my right hand decided to chip so i had to cut it off. hopefully the rest stay good so i can get a manicure. i've been so busy and trying to save up on money that i didn't even bother getting my daily manicures/pedicures. money just ain't what it used to be like back then. i guess being that as i get older i can really see how money is and it can truly go by so quickly. i mean i can really see how money goes to waste. anyways, went back to the park yesterday. this guy tried to holla but i was feelin' it. this brings up another thing i hate. i have long hair...so immediately people assume i'm indian and not guyanese. so walking on the ave..old nasty men try to call me and shout 'yo indyan' and then when you don't answer or give them the time of day they get mad and curse you out. what kinda fucked up shit is that? I'M not the one who told you to call me out. I didn't make a pass at you so don't get mad that you're calling ME out and I don't answer YOU. and i like how these 40-?? year old men actually thought they had a chance. KEVIN LYTTLE "CALL ME" it’s a been long time since i saw you and i’m going out of my mind. don’t think i can live another minute without you by my side. oh your presence makes me weak and turn cold in my arms. i need you now i need you here. i need you now this day around me and chase away my fears. i want it now i want it here. call me, when you're home and all alone girl. call me any minute any hour. call me, you can reach me on the cellular. call me, you can beep me on the beeper. cause if i'm to live without it i've been living in tears. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: wednesday -- july 02 -- 2003 b0uncin to: tujhe dekha WHOOPS oops, so i said later but decided to write back a day later, my bad , lol. yes so i woke up around 12. i don't know but it was a good sleep. yesterday i chilled with jessie and cassy and we went to the park. i swung on the swings, then got off. i hate when parks get so much crowds but only have like 4 swings, that is the main reason why all the kids came to the park in the first place...well....all the older kids. i started reading more of "The Picture of Dorian Gray" it's actually starting off kind of good. hopefully it'll stay like that. after july 10th i will be able to get my new cell-U-lar. i'm really hoping for the Samsung SCH-a530. i think it's cute and it's by verizon. hopefully verizon will provide me with better services than t-mobile did. now that i've realized, i think t-mobile is best for text message users and verizon is best for minute users. ah i don't know. i'll just have to see myself. when i first saw the phone they said it costed around 9. but now lately i'm seeing it for basically 0. that's ridiculious. hopefully it's for 9, cause that's basically all the money i have. we'll just have to see. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: tuesday -- july 01 -- 2003 b0uncin to: reggae/indian mix JULY yea man..it's already july. this friday is the 4th of july..unfortunately heading up to upstate..ROAR *turns into a cheap imitation of the hulk* i hate upstate so much. it gets me so angry and there's too many dam bugs. hold on..i gotta stop this entry for a hot minute...i'll get back. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: monday -- june 30 -- 2003 b0uncin to: 2pac -- brenda's got a baby ORIENTATION i went to orientation today for the place. turns out 3 girls from my school were there so i wasn't that nervous. it was alright. they described everything and how to lock a wheelchair but then they killed it with this tape that was long and basically retold everything they just said. monday is like a rough draft of my first day. i'm going to go in at 10:30 and they are going to give me my assignments and a tour of the place. i hope i don't screw up or get discouraged because the administrators were saying that a lot of kids get discouraged because sometimes the residents won't be having a good day and we might take it personally and that we have to go to the administrators and talk to them. turns out i can rock jeans...oh yes. so i'll be rockin' jeans and ups everyday because you can't rock slippers or short skirts or shorts -- which is understandable. i also realized that i will be doing this for more than i wanted to...till like the middle of august -- mondays, wednesdays, and fridays...10 am - 4pm. my mother made the schedule. i'm kind of nervous cause there will be times where i will be left alone with one of the residents for like half an hour so i'm going to have to come up with things for them to talk about with. so i guess i better live up this whole week. and it's sad to say but i don't think there will be time for me to spend time in the bronx. XANGA i got one of my own. it really makes no sense. a lot of people have been telling me to get one so they can drop me eprops and personally i wanted to join because of the blogrings but i know for a fact that i won't be able to drop this pitas page. i've put so much hard work in it. i love pitas cause they give you the freedom to make a layout and make it anyway you want. with xanga you can only have one certain thing..well that's unless you buy premium. but xanga is really good for those who find html hard or confusing. xanga is fun but i can never give up this page...nope. i rarely write in that blasted thing. i have to find some sort of use for it. if not i'll just delete it and stick with this blog =) . of course. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: saturday -- june 28 -- 2003 b0uncin to: notorious b.i.g. -- juicy FEELIN' SICK it's summer and i'm getting sick. roar. it's because of this central air. the basement (where everything is located at) is freezing, the middle floor is alright, and the upstairs (where all the bedrooms are) is hot. so it's not like i can just take it off and call it a day. i hate being sick, my throat is all itchy and at night my head starts to hurt and i become very irritable. today i tried to make tea and put lemon inside, which i've never done before, so me, being the genius that i am, i make the tea and i cut up 1 whole lemon and squeeze all the juice into it. yes, i learned a very valuable lesson once i tasted it. i only made it worse trying to add huge amounts of sugar. that was a waste of some tea. monday is orientation for the place i'll be doing my volunteer work. i'll be all alone...kinda nervous tho but i have to learn to do things by myself rather than depend on other people cause that's not how life is. i figure that if i do mondays-fridays from 9 a.m. to 3 p.m. i'll get the hours done quicker. but the problem is that it will also seem to quick to stop with them. i have to read a lot and sign these papers they gave me. it's kind of scary cause in some twisted way i will have other people's lives in my hand. they give this paper on what to do incase of a fire and it states that you have to get everyone out and then get yourself out, so your basically putting your life on the line. it's pretty understandable for the place i'm working at but still, it's a scary thought. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: friday -- june 27 -- 2003 b0uncin to: 50 cent -- don't push me REPORT CARDS/OFFICIAL LAST DAY yep yep. today was my official last day of school. but it seems so late cause next week is already july 4th. this vacation is going to go by mad fast and next thing you know, it'll be junior year. i got my report card. i got a 66 on my chem regents. i'm just thankful i passed cause mad girls failed. i went up in all my classes except religion but that was by 1 point. my average in math was a 75 but because of the final which i got a 62 on it brought my final average in math to a 69. yes. so this made me pissed, but hey, i passed. i got a 94 in gym, i don't know how but shit, i'm not going to argue. MESSED UP CRAP yo i don't care what people say, you can know someone for long and shit will still pop off, you can know someone for so long and they still can't tell you what they're truly feeling to this day but can tell other people. it's truly sad cause they knew me longer yet are going to go confide in other people? shits messed up man. yea it may be like well if i got something with them i should tell them but i'm not going to waste my time. if they feel that they can't tell me what's going on why should i even waste my time, yunno? shits messed up that you can ask them what's up and they coldy push you away? shits wrong but they give you the excuse that it's just that they don't want to talk. i understand that but don't take your aggressions on the people who have nothing to do with what makes you angry. we don't know what's bothering you so if you keep on pushing people away, they are going to feel like you're angry cause of them when in reality you might not be. i just don't know what to do now and i'm tired of it. we rarely talk nor do anything together. i feel like i'm always on your nerves and that i'm just some annoying piece of shit to you. it's just not the same anymore, just not the same. i want my old homey back and how things used to be. BLOW UP THE MIC yo biggup mad props to my black brother tony man. cat got a 94 on his SEQUENTIAL 3 regents. wow. that's all i can say. wowwwwww. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: tuesday -- june 24 -- 2003 b0uncin to: fabolous feat. ashanti -- so into you [remix]. CHEM REGENTS wow wow wow. that shit was hard. i knew i should of stayed my ass offline. well, actually i started doing some practice questions but i got bored. =/ even the simplest part c was hard. (???) yo i'm just praying that i passed cause i don't feel like fuckin' up my summer and going to summer school. this school year has been the worst, there were good times but mainly bad times and i seriously need a break from school. a nice long break. SPRITE REMIX word to me that's my new drink. forget pepsi twist, this shit is crazy. everyday now, i'm going by the little jamaica pattie shop and coppin' me a bottle of sprite remix. hey, they only sell it for , can't go wrong. omg that shit is off the chain. PUMPIN JAY-Zmemph bleek always smoking that lalala....beanie sigel always smoking that lalala....neptunes track smoke like lalala...it's the ROC baby sing, i lullaby. come on! excuse me miss i'm the shit (do you want me to do it?) you should come hang with me basically (do you want me to do it?) hols up skip all the singin' let's go ride tonight mami (come on now uhh). --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: sunday -- june 22 -- 2003 b0uncin to: Ladki Badi Anjani Hai. RANDOM BOREDNESS came back from my sister's a while ago. i have nothing to do. i studied a little for chemistry and i came online. my room isn't a mess so there's no cleaning to do. the night of jackee's sweet 16 my sister and kyle were in my room. my sister found 3 rubber bands and pt them in kyle's hair. i have a picture but you can't really see them: i don't have to worry about school tomorrow cause there is none! lol. tomorrow me and my mom are going to fill in an application for me at this nursing home to do my 40 hours of volunteer work. i want to get it over with so badly. oon june 30th i'm going with my cousins to pennsylvania. should be lots of fun. the weather for monday and tuesday looks real nice. let's hope is stays like that. well. i'm gone. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH date: saturday -- june 21 -- 2003 b0uncin to: Foxy Brown -- Sorry. JACKEE'S SWEET 16 jessie came and picked me up. the party was held at the Casa Blanca in Maspeth. jackee looked so0o pretty! i felt kind of out of place cause everyone was basically wearing a tube top dress and here was alissa wearing a regular sleeveless dress, lol. na, but we had a really good time. i brought home with me glowsticks, a pair of sunglasses, an inflatable electric guitar, a luoa necklace, a hand clapper, and a party favor, which was a really pretty picture frame. i need to copp a picture of me and jackee to put in there. NOTHINGNESS other than jackee's party i don't really have a certain thing to talk about. i've decided to start harassing my mom about the 40-11 things she has delayed to do. so many things, i just want to get them over with. i want to go to the mall so i can buy clothes, clothes, and more clothes. i really need to buy dresses and accessories, i've realized this when trying to pick something to wear for jackee's party. i was listening to the radio lately and they were doing a commercial for beyonce and they were just hyping her up. in my opinion, i don't think beyonce is that pretty nor does she have a sexy body. a person's personality can really affect how they look towards people. i think she tries to hard to be in the spotlight. she did it with destiny's child and in her new video...all up in jay-z's grill. i don't like her new song 'babyboy' feat. sean paul. speaking of sean paul, i was watching MTV and he said that he's going to tone down his music, meaning toning down his accent just so people can understand every word he says. personally, i think that's bullshit. i mean the world loves his music and obviously isn't affected by the way he speaks. and it's part of his culture. his voice is what makes him sexy. so fuck all those who say he's needs to tone down his accent. well, i'm done. trying to look for this song. 1 --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <-- date: friday -- june 20 -- 2003 b0uncin to: nothing. THE HULK yup. today me and lauren went all the way to queens bridge to go see "The Hulk". i thought it was going to be bad but it was good, really good. i thought it would be bad cause the upn 9 critic said it would be. but she usually has bad taste. she said spiderman and x-men were bad but they were good. i don't understand why news channels have movie critics. everybody enjoys a movie differently. what the critic thinks is their opinion. why would i want to hear their opinion? most of the time i disagree with them. anyways, the movie was really good. that's my new boyfriend <3 , lol. for any of you wrestling heads, i think there is a strange resemblance between brock lesnar and the hulk. watch next time when brock lesnar compulses his muscles. you'll see. ;) BLOW UP THE MIC: today's shout out is going to jess. after going through her great adventure through queensbridge and seeing how she travels i give her mad props. i'll never complain about me walking home, lol. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH date: thursday -- june 19 -- 2003 b0uncin to: militant -- passion. 1 MORE REGENTS! word. i barely passed the math in january. i took the global yesterday and on the 24th i take chem. i need to start studying cause to this day i still don't know how to balance equations, which is really sad. i really hope my grades improved. if not i'm gonna be working my ass off during junior year. their making us do 40 hours of volunteer work and not just any volunteer work, it's volunteer work where you're actually like taking care of people (e.g. candy stiper, working at a daycare, etc.). so i'm gonna try and get that done over this summer and after that hopefully i can get a paying job. this generation's fads and trends are really expensive and i don't want to waste my parents money nor hear them complain so i've decided that it's time to get a job. MILITANT-PASSION "baby give it to me..and fill me up wid extascy...de way you do it wit energy i said woman is my riddim in you? de way you pump it i have to say...come on and give it to me baby. when wuk yuh waist..you raise my passion. yes come on and give it to me baby when you wuk yuk waist i get an instant reaction." i can never get tired of this song yo. thanks to lauren for drilling this song in my head constantly. THE RAIN word to me i'm getting so tired of this rain. it's not even funny. 13 out of 16 weekends this year alone has been rained out and there's more rain on it's way. i heard that it's part of a cycle that comes every 10 years or so. so basically this summer in new york will be rain, rain, and yes more rain. shits getting ridiculious man. and what's funny is that white is the in color..so how can us chicks rock it with all this rain? nice for the guys i guess? BLOW UP THE MIC wanna give a shout out today to mr. sexy himself sEkisfied r0BB. his layouts just get sexier and sexier. lol. you go and do you r0bb. holla. --> HyPn0tIk SHoRtii... be holding it down like a fat kid on a see-saw. ...iitRoHs kIt0nPyH <--

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